Sunday, June 13, 2004

weekend
it's a sunday today, and i'm in a fairly good mood... normally i would wake up in a foul mood because i hate sundays... you may ask why... well it's because tomorrow would be monday, dimwit... nobody says it better than the late karen carpenter... "walkin' around, nothing to do but frown... rainy days and mondays always get me down..." yeah, i hate mondays more than i hate sundays... but i also hate tuesdays and thursdays because i don't like my classes for those days... we have religion and immunology in the morning and chemistry and literature in the afternoon... argh... rels and chem are ok, i guess, because the profs were, uhm, funny(?)... the rest were a drag... i just go there and wait until the bell rings... and litera... ugh! it's not that i don't like to read... i LOVE to read... but the activities... argh... i hate group activities... especially when it involves plays/presentations... duh... i'm a reserved type of person... i hate being in front of people... i have no business being there...

so as i was saying... it's a sunday and i'm quite sober... no thoughts about terminating meaningless lives... no bickering about the superficiality of the people around me.. yeah... as a matter of fact, my neighbor is playing 50's songs in full blast and i'm not affected... i even sing along to some of the songs (put your head on my shoulder....) i hope this mood stays for good, but knowing me... that's quite impossible...

yesterday, i watched DAWN OF THE DEAD with my mother... quite scary... one of my friends say that the earlier zombie movies directed by the same person (i forgot the name of the director) were hilarious... well the latest one isn't... well it does present subtle humour that an average moviegoer wouldn't be able to catch, but that's all... the rest were edge-of-the-seat suspense... and there were some parts that were boring... but all in all i think it was fairly good... however i don't trust my judgement because i wasn't able to see the prequels... so there... my friends might get mad at me because we had an agreement that we will watch the movie together... oh well... i got bored... and it was a weekend... they can't blame me... wehehehe...
Morbid Indulgencestarted this journey at6/13/2004

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

one more day... just like the rest... not much events... or maybe i'm just too jaded to notice... so there i was... just going along with the flow... not caring much about the people around me, or what they are doing... maybe i'm a stuck up kid... but hell, they can't force me to listen to stories about their meaningless lives (the "meaningless" part is my opinion only... not necessarily true...) or maybe we just have different interests... i once heard that to be interesting, you must be interested... wooosh... isn't that an example of petitio principii? they bore me because what they are saying isn't interesting (for me at least) and i bore them because i am not interested in what they have to say...

the thing is... i've been there before... all those things about teenage obsession, angst, and the will to prove yourself to the world... i've been through all of that... and i know that it is only a phase... it will all come to pass... unless if you are suffering from oc/neurosis... that's a totally different story...
Morbid Indulgencestarted this journey at6/09/2004

Saturday, June 05, 2004

the life i hate
dysthymia... that's what i'm experiencing right now... for the sake of those who are not used to psycho jargon, dysthymia is a state of extreme depression... woah... yeah i'm really, really depressed... and what's worse, i have no reason for feeling this way... it's chronic... sometimes it goes away but when it gets back its stronger than ever... and for your information, just because you may see a person laughing doesn't mean that the said person is truly happy... oh well... that's life... there's no meaning in it... i just live to die another day (wehehehe sounds like madonna)... ok so that's all for now...
Morbid Indulgencestarted this journey at6/05/2004