Wednesday, February 02, 2005
this post has long been overdue
i took the mcat (medical college admission test) last saturday, january 29, and it was disastrous. i know i did terribly, PRIMARILY because my vision's so bad and my head was spinning due to astigmatism which i have been ignoring for quite some time now (or was it that i was wracking my brain too hard for answers that i didn't really know in the first place?). one subtest has a font size of about 7. it was quite an experience, so taxing and degrading, that i immediately went on an eating spree after the test. oh the pleasure of sinking my teeth on wendy's burger (wendy's buns and patties? wehehehe) right after a long day of gruelling mind work. i was instantly gratified, though not fully, because there was still the nagging pang of self-depreciation in knowing that i might possibly flunk that exam and lose my chance of going to plm... see, told you my life is made up of one failure after another. well, i just have to learn to deal with that, i think...
anyway, another result of the experience was i got myself my own pair of glasses. now, i'm not only playing the part of the geek, i'm also looking it (that doesn't sound grammatically correct, but i know you understand). i just feel so relieved that not too many people react to it; now i don't have to feel shy wearing it everyday. it takes a little effort getting used to having something constantly sitting on top of your nose, and i sure hope i don't break my frames within the course of 6 months in which i was advised to wear it.
checklist
x ust -i think i flunked the interview
x st. luke's -i came out as a violent person in the psychological exam
x up-mla -asa ka pa may
x plm -failed mcat
_ dlsu-dasma
_ feu
wunoh... i'm running out of options...
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TALK ABOUT THE ELEMENTS
i now heart radium... i still heart sulfur very much but he has to stay in the background for a while because radium is my flavor of the moment? week? month?
curse me and my appetite for the silent, brooding type of men...
just this afternoon, i saw potassium holding hands with his sparkly diamond, and i can't help but feel a tinge of jealousy right then, which came to pass just as swiftly as it occured. he belongs to the past, though a not too distant one, it still is something i cannot control. oh well, i'd still say, it's not my loss. wehehehe... bitterness.
anyway, about radium... i've been pestering nic (chie's nicky-doodles) about him the whole afternoon, asking for information. turns out they weren't really close, but still, i thank heaven for nic, who is always willing to gather bits of information just to satisy my girlish err... desires? no, that doesn't sound right... let's say... just to make me happy for one day.
nic, if you're still reading my posts, i heart you, as a friend. wehehehe...
i also thank heaven for ferli, who i've learned, is not made up of stone after all... *giggle*
i saw raisa in sj, had a chance to talk to her, and share my new object of obsession. they're classmates in one subject, i think...
i only have two months of college... i don't want to leave yet...
Morbid Indulgencestarted this journey at2/02/2005
